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Weird.


I feel a change sweeping over my life. Although chaos is so evident and developing I feel more pleased with everything. I think my emotional scars are starting to fade quickly. What he did to me is no longer effecting my conscious mind. I have completely stopped taking bullshit from anyone. The law of attraction is a beautiful thing. I have been working towards mastering the use of it. So far the little things are happening easier and easier. meh, this is becoming more of a rambling than anything else lol.

One day my prince will come.

Oh baby, your energy caresses me so sweetly.  

My heart pumps our love through my veins like an addiction. 

I adore every touch, every hug, every kiss. 

I used to think I understood what love is. 

I feel it in every inch of my body.

I want to be your wife, your everything for the rest of this life and for eternity. 

I can't walk further into this life without you by my side. 

I love everything about you. 

I am ready to feel something real forever.

I am ready to live for you. 

My night in shining armor, my man, my everything.

Wasted Moments Lost in Time

If I peeled back my skin and could show you my insides would you recognize me? 

Would you even second guess your opinion of me? 

There is more to these walls than I like to explain.

 I can no longer be what anyone wants me to be. 

So if you want me, you need to understand that I am not what you want me to be. 

Nor will I ask you to be what you are not.

Can you show me who you are? 

Would you even know how? 

My time is too precious to be wasted, this life is too short to dwell on the impossible. 

Your actions account for everything feeling. 

But what happened to your words.. 

they mean something in my mind.

Stuck on this track.. 

It may be early but can we meet where our souls are showing?

The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows

As this pain swells up again,
I can't stop the plunge.
This slithering through my veins,
Trying to attack my heart.
Seizing up with tears I cannot help.
I feel so cold,
No one to save me again. 
If only I could save myself,
I dont have the strength.
My heart aches so terribly.
I love to be lonely,
when there is no one to help.
A vicious cycle keeps repeating itself.
Alone, Alone,
Where I put myself from time to time.
I am given no other alternative than this,
As I bury these feelings again..
I will pretend I am okay, once again.

Jaded Seclusion

As the day winds down my energy dwindles while my imagination is only beginning to awaken.

Go through my routine its so easy to shut it all out of my head.

My body pulses with pain created by my jaded mind.

I want to let them into my heart and share myself,

Could they pay mind to my guts spilling on the floor.

Everything I am staining their shallow conscious.

In the morning will they remember what I said.

It meant so much to me, what does it mean to them?
The care I have is especially shown by how much I expand my soul to another person.
My heart hurts each time I am told I don't show enough.
Would you even fucking notice?
Would you feel each word as it escapes into the air?
 

Seduction of the Heart

Conviction in every word, faint contradiction in your actions.
Sweetly your energy caresses me.
Doubt snakes up next to me, am I blind to this?
I have met so many good magicians.
Pulling reality out of lies.
Should I trust this beauty?
Or leave it all behind....

Full moon effect

 
 Show me things I have never seen.

Tell me things you would ever tell anyone else.

Make this novocaine feeling fade from my body.

Take me on a journey, far away from civilization.

Be the friend I couldn't live without.

Laugh with me until you hurt.

Help me to feel the love that I'm sure is a fairytale.

I want to believe in happiness.